Monthly Archives: March 2016

Why survivors act the way they do…

I have had a very hard time this last week reconciling the verdict in the Ghomeshi trial. For days I could not even watch the news. On Facebook I hid every picture and reference – even those about the huge out-pouring of support for the victims.

Though I felt the same way I could not face the issue.

Today while reviewing my second book before it goes to layout I came across something I wrote and decided to share it…

January 11, 2013

The more I wrote, the more I found myself drawn back to the man I now recognized as my abuser. What is wrong with me?


I love him still. Don’t I?

There, I have said it.

Written it with my own hand.

Thought it out loud.

Or is it a remnant of my programming?

And don’t forget my sick mind.

All these complex feelings,

Buried for so very long.

Resurfacing when I am most vulnerable.

Shamed, not jealous should I be.

Normalcy beckons from afar,

But I still need closure.

I need to talk with him one last time.

Face-to-face, before it is too l a t e. ☞



LetDownSometimes you have to rise above behaviours like this for the betterment of the project.

However, it doesn’t mean that ittrust hurts less…






I can be extremely loyal, but that doesn’t mean I “trust” anyone. Trust has to be earned…



All my life I have had to be adaptive. Why would I change now?

What Matters Most?

Restoration, a revival, redux

Commitment, engaged and enthusiasm

Community sharing a worthwhile goal

Work together to show this place matters.


Back stage environs are turbulent

Good intentions lack group experience

Personalities clash, feelings are hurt

Derailment is possible one concurs.


Persevering regardless the toll

My psyche will survive in the end

Personal feelings aside I will work

As the journey in the end is our goal.


Beyond me

What is a board of


A board of directors is a body of elected or appointed members who jointly oversee the activities of a company or organization.


What is an executive committee?

It is a group of directors appointed to act on behalf of, and within the powers granted to them by, the board of directors. Typically it consists of a chairperson, vice-chairperson, secretary, and treasurer.

… What is so hard to understand and how on earth can this normal organizational structure seem so threatening to some?

It is beyond me…